after explaining that part to me, she recommended to another dentist. this time, the dentist was an old man, who was acting all chummy and not so professional-y which comforted me for a minute or so. he did the 'exploration' thing with minor tweaks: he tapped the decayed teeth with the end of mirror-thingy which made my body jerk with pain. he asked me if that pained me and i had to supress the urge to roll my eyes and sock him in the stomach. i meekly said 'yesh'. he proceeded to tap the other teeth which, thankfully, did not hurt. after that he explained to me that i indeed have an impacted tooth but he was not sure whether or not the pain i'm having is because of the impacted tooth or the decayed one. what he said next blew me:  he had to remove both. i looked at the light that was positioned over my head and i felt my eyes water. i said 'wouldn't it hurt to extract them both at the same time?' and he said no because i'll be under the influence of the anesthesia during the surgery. what he assured me was the fact that i'll have a wound on my gums and  that if i do separate surgery for both, i'll just sport another wound which would then hurt. i joked about being scared (which was not really a joke) and felt a tear escape my eye (which thankfully the dentist seemed to attribute to my excessive (nervous) laughing). 

after a while or so, he asked me if i was willing to do the surgery tomorrow. after thinking for quite a long time (while the lakers-orlando game was at full blast on the television set just a few meters away from me) i decided to go and said 'yes'. he lead me then to makeshift lobby inside the clinic and gave me a  prescription of the medicine that i need to take before the surgery. before i left (i was planning on finishing the lakers-orlando game at the clinic but then the game was tied at 88 and was pushed to an OT xs)  he gave me the x-ray result (souvenir?) and asked me to come back at 8 (freaking 8!!)in the morning for the surgery along with the reminders to drink lots of fluids and eat a lot before the surgery. i'm thinking that i won't be able to eat for a while after the surgery that's why he advised me to do so. 

i told a few of my friends about what happened and like what good friends do, they assured me...assured me that it would hurt like hell and even painted a few mental pictures for me. one told me that the dentist would have to 'slice' a part of my gum for the impacted teeth, another one told me that while i'll feel no pain cause of the anesthesia, i could still feel the sensation of my mouth being probed. another one told me in simple words that there'll be lots of blood. greeaaaaat. i'm pretty sure now that those images would haunt me this night. and i have my bestest friends to thank. great friends, great friends.

i'm ending this rant cause i need to sleep now if i want to wake up early tomorrow. so yeah, i'll end it. wish me luck. i seriously need  it.


 

shit, i wanted to post my post-match analysis but hell who cares about that?? bottom line is nadal lost. big time.that's that. bwhahahahaha!!! shit, i can't stop grinning.hahahaha, man, my mother's already bothered by it but man, bwahhahahahah! i'm soooooooooooooooooooooo
happy!! i feel like skipping to paris XD

roger my man, this is your chance, please don't fuck up.
please,please,please!!

if federer wins this, i'm taking up religion XD (yes i have one but i rarely practice it XD )






this is probably how i looked like a while ago XD

wooot!! nadal lost!!! yeah babey!!

 

Digressing, I realized a sad fact yesterday. my friend visited me yesterday and asked me to draw some L and Light (Death Note). She showed me a few pics on the pc. I picked L first cause he looked simple and easy to draw. After a few minutes of drawing, I stared at my work and well it looked like crap. The outline look a bit like L but the looking at it over-all, the L I drew looked gay, as in homo. I don’t know what went wrong with the drawing and what the hell I did for it to look gay but it really looked like a homo-L. To cut the crap short, I fucking can’t draw like the way I used to back in high school. I am aware of the fact that I haven’t been drawing much like I did way back in high school (I mean how do I do that when I’m always occupied with school work) but still, to forget how to draw…man I just felt like shit. I mean honestly, I’ve always been proud of the fact that I can draw (I mean, that’s the only talent I can say that I have!!) and now just realizing that I can’t draw anymore is just…ugh…well, worst than knowing that you have some disease in your stomach like ulcer. Gahd, this is so frustrating…and depressing…it’s also, for some fucking reason, makes my stomach hurt. I’ve been experiencing hunger pains since yesterday and even the glee I feel after discovering facebook can’t help me ignore the pains…and the depression from knowing that I am now officially talent-less. Damn, now I’m officially a fucking bum who knows nothing and can do nothing…worthless….I feel like dying.

I am going to redeem myself, somehow, someway. I swear, I’ll draw again. Someday…Soon. Whatever.

I want to fucking write a story but I’m idea-less. Practically I’m a no-brainer right now and I lack inspiration. I lack the drive to practically do anything. I have this program that’s been pending for a month now and I haven’t even spared it a glance. The last time I touched the folder containing the program was like April 12 because the deadline’s April 13. I tried running it, and was faced with 100 or so errors (I’m thinking that 90% of the errors are just typos or wrong syntax but I couldn’t care less.) I mean honestly, after seeing 100 or so errors appear would you still have the energy to face a program?? Well not me, fucking sir-ee. I for one am a lazy bum, and well, tackling problems whatever type they may be is not my specialty. So, yeah, despite the loads of time I have in my hand, I still haven’t started debugging the freaking program…Gah, why am I even in this course? Can anybody give me a reasonable explanation??? Sheesh, what’s up with the world? And what’s up with my serious lack of drive to do anything??? GAH!!!

Apathetic ...more like i'm a pathetic person..

4. "Baby said you had to be a lover, one way or the other..."

5. "Ahh, just a little bit longer (Stay!)"

6. "Let's go to the park. I wanna kiss you underneath the stars"

7. "Why must the children play in the street?"

8. "Shorty had them apple bottom jeans, (jeans), boots with the fur"

9."I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad"

10. "Me with the floorshow, kickin with your torso"'

11. "I wake up every evening with a big smile on my face and it never feels out of place"

12. "Ich bin Schnappi, das kleine Krokodil. "

13. "If you wanna go and take a rid wit me,We three-wheelin in the fo' with the gold D's"

14. "Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Joleeene, I'm begging of you please don't take my man"

15. "Desert loving in your eyes all the way"

16. "You got a reaction, you got a reaction didn't you?"

17. "Oh oh-oh oh ooh. why'd you have to go-oh away from home me love"

18."Well let the geek in the pink take a stab at it"

19. "Back to the street where we began"

20. "I never loved nobody fully"

21." When the night has come and the land is dark"

22."You don't know how you met me, you don't know why you can't turn around and say goodbye"

23."there you see her standing there across the way"

24. "Aieressera, oì nè, me ne sagliette"

25."Some people love shoes, of certain kinds"

26."Got a big plan, his mind set maybe it's right'

27."Two of riding nowhere, spending someone's hard earned pay"

28."Wouldn't it be nice if we were older"

29. "Lalalalalalalala lie lie lie"

green paint (not my idea), sensen's poster, kobe's poster, the yaoi poster i made, a calendar, my daily sched, clock, my tennis rackets, and a miniscule, plastic basketball ring (just for fun).

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